• Writing in pen

    Poetic joys amidst meditative punishments

    As mentioned in previous posts, my New Year’s resolution was to try a new thing every day this year. In January, I listened to new music and in February, I endeavored to exercise for 20 minutes a day. Alas, March did not go well. My goal was to meditate for 15 minutes a day, and I simply did not do that. As such, I shall be punished — which in this case means spending the next month repeating March’s endeavor. Since April is also National Poetry Month, I shall also add the task of reading a new poem every day.

    On April 1st, I read “There Will Come Soft Rains” by Sara Teasdale

    There will come soft rains and the smell of the ground,
    And swallows circling with their shimmering sound;

    And frogs in the pools, singing at night,
    And wild plum trees in tremulous white,

    Robins will wear their feathery fire,
    Whistling their whims on a low fence-wire;

    And not one will know of the war, not one
    Will care at last when it is done.

    Not one would mind, neither bird nor tree,
    If mankind perished utterly;

    And Spring herself, when she woke at dawn,
    Would scarcely know that we were gone.

    * * *

    On April 2nd, I read “Ulalume” by Edgar Allan Poe

    The skies they were ashen and sober;
    The leaves they were crisped and sere—
    The leaves they were withering and sere;
    It was night in the lonesome October
    Of my most immemorial year:
    It was hard by the dim lake of Auber,
    In the misty mid region of Weir—
    It was down by the dank tarn of Auber,
    In the ghoul-haunted woodland of Weir.

    Here once, through an alley Titanic,
    Of cypress, I roamed with my Soul—
    Of cypress, with Psyche, my Soul.
    These were days when my heart was volcanic
    As the scoriac rivers that roll—
    As the lavas that restlessly roll
    Their sulphurous currents down Yaanek
    In the ultimate climes of the pole—
    That groan as they roll down Mount Yaanek
    In the realms of the boreal pole.

    Our talk had been serious and sober,
    But our thoughts they were palsied and sere—
    Our memories were treacherous and sere,—
    For we knew not the month was October,
    And we marked not the night of the year
    (Ah, night of all nights in the year!)—
    We noted not the dim lake of Auber
    (Though once we had journeyed down here)—
    Remembered not the dank tarn of Auber,
    Nor the ghoul-haunted woodland of Weir.

    And now, as the night was senescent
    And star-dials pointed to morn—
    As the star-dials hinted of morn—
    At the end of our path a liquescent
    And nebulous lustre was born,
    Out of which a miraculous crescent
    Arose with a duplicate horn—
    Astarte’s bediamonded crescent
    Distinct with its duplicate horn.

    And I said: “She is warmer than Dian;
    She rolls through an ether of sighs—
    She revels in a region of sighs:
    She has seen that the tears are not dry on
    These cheeks, where the worm never dies,
    And has come past the stars of the Lion
    To point us the path to the skies—
    To the Lethean peace of the skies—
    Come up, in despite of the Lion,
    To shine on us with her bright eyes—
    Come up through the lair of the Lion,
    With love in her luminous eyes.”

    But Psyche, uplifting her finger,
    Said: “Sadly this star I mistrust—
    Her pallor I strangely mistrust:
    Ah, hasten! —ah, let us not linger!
    Ah, fly! —let us fly! -for we must.”
    In terror she spoke, letting sink her
    Wings until they trailed in the dust—
    In agony sobbed, letting sink her
    Plumes till they trailed in the dust—
    Till they sorrowfully trailed in the dust.

    I replied: “This is nothing but dreaming:
    Let us on by this tremulous light!
    Let us bathe in this crystalline light!
    Its Sybilic splendour is beaming
    With Hope and in Beauty tonight!—
    See!—it flickers up the sky through the night!
    Ah, we safely may trust to its gleaming,
    And be sure it will lead us aright—
    We safely may trust to a gleaming,
    That cannot but guide us aright,
    Since it flickers up to Heaven through the night.”

    Thus I pacified Psyche and kissed her,
    And tempted her out of her gloom—
    And conquered her scruples and gloom;
    And we passed to the end of the vista,
    But were stopped by the door of a tomb—
    By the door of a legended tomb;
    And I said: “What is written, sweet sister,
    On the door of this legended tomb?”
    She replied: “Ulalume -Ulalume—
    ‘Tis the vault of thy lost Ulalume!”

    Then my heart it grew ashen and sober
    As the leaves that were crisped and sere—
    As the leaves that were withering and sere;
    And I cried: “It was surely October
    On this very night of last year
    That I journeyed—I journeyed down here!—
    That I brought a dread burden down here—
    On this night of all nights in the year,
    Ah, what demon hath tempted me here?
    Well I know, now, this dim lake of Auber—
    This misty mid region of Weir—
    Well I know, now, this dank tarn of Auber,
    This ghoul-haunted woodland of Weir.”

    * * *

    And today, I read “Travel” by Robert Louis Stevenson

    I should like to rise and go
    Where the golden apples grow;—
    Where below another sky
    Parrot islands anchored lie,
    And, watched by cockatoos and goats,
    Lonely Crusoes building boats;—
    Where in sunshine reaching out
    Eastern cities, miles about,
    Are with mosque and minaret
    Among sandy gardens set,
    And the rich goods from near and far
    Hang for sale in the bazaar,—
    Where the Great Wall round China goes,
    And on one side the desert blows,
    And with bell and voice and drum
    Cities on the other hum;—
    Where are forests, hot as fire,
    Wide as England, tall as a spire,
    Full of apes and cocoa-nuts
    And the negro hunters’ huts;—
    Where the knotty crocodile
    Lies and blinks in the Nile,
    And the red flamingo flies
    Hunting fish before his eyes;—
    Where in jungles, near and far,
    Man-devouring tigers are,
    Lying close and giving ear
    Lest the hunt be drawing near,
    Or a comer-by be seen
    Swinging in a palanquin;—
    Where among the desert sands
    Some deserted city stands,
    All its children, sweep and prince,
    Grown to manhood ages since,
    Not a foot in street or house,
    Not a stir of child or mouse,
    And when kindly falls the night,
    In all the town no spark of light.
    There I’ll come when I’m a man
    With a camel caravan;
    Light a fire in the gloom
    Of some dusty dining-room;
    See the pictures on the walls,
    Heroes, fights and festivals;
    And in a corner find the toys
    Of the old Egyptian boys.

    If you have other poetry suggestions, feel free to email ’em.

    National Poetry Month

  • TV stand

    Relationship advice: No assembly required

    I used to think that road trips and cross-country moves were the best ways to test the strength of a relationship. But I’d also add “assembling furniture” to that list.

    Seriously, IKEA probably kills more relationships than Ashley Madison.

    (Note: M and I are fine, and the new TV stand looks great. But next time, we’re hiring a guy.)

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    The memories of meals

    In the documentary series, “Cooked,” author Michael Pollan talked about how cooking shows have become a hugely popular form of entertainment even though fewer people are spending time in the kitchen making food for themselves. He attributed the interest in watching people cook to family recollections implanted in childhood, an experience that created a sense of tradition and nostalgia.

    “You know there are lots of things in modern life we no longer do for ourselves, that we’ve outsourced to corporations, and we don’t watch TV about it,” Pollan said. “Cooking is different. There’s something that draws us to that hearth. And I think some of it has to do with the fact that we all have powerful memories of being cooked for by our moms, by our dads, by our grandparents.”

    I seem to be an outlier of his theory. I love to cook. I cook for my husband every day. But I certainly didn’t learn to love cooking — or food — in my childhood home.

    I come from a Midwestern working-class family, one that pretty much survived on convenience foods. Typical dinners were hot dogs and Kraft dinner, fish sticks and canned veg or Hamburger Helper. Once in a while, there would be a pot roast or a meal cooked on the grill in the back yard. We couldn’t afford to eat out much so we never got hooked on fast food; going to McDonalds for a birthday party was a rare treat.

    Every lunch box was filled with a sandwich (usually made with cheap white bread), a piece of fruit and some sort of salty or sweet snack. Every dinner was quickly assembled from a box or a can, and made on the stove top. My brother and I drank gallons of Kool-Aid and sweet iced tea and milk, but pop was a luxury that only Grandma provided on weekends.

    Needless to say, in my family, there were few “traditional” recipes handed down from generation to generation, and certainly none that harkened back to any particular culture. Our meals rarely featured any ethnic cuisines or influences; hell, I didn’t even try Chinese food until I went away to college.

    And so, I cook for other reasons:

    Health: Cooking is healthier than eating out because I know exactly what’s going into the food I make. For example, my favorite recipe for sandwich bread contains flour, salt, milk, unsalted butter, honey and yeast. The most popular brand of sandwich bread sold in grocery stores contains: flour, sugar, wheat gluten, yeast, fiber, calcium sulfate, salt, calcium carbonate, soybean oil, cultured wheat flour, vinegar, dough conditioners (including one or more of the following: sodium stearoyl lactylate, calcium stearoyl lactylate, monoglycerides and/or diglycerides, calcium peroxide, calcium iodate, datem, ethoxylated mono and diglycerides, azodicarbonamide, enzymes), guar gum, soy flour, ammonium sulfate, monocalcium phosphate, soy lecithin, niacin, iron (ferrous sulfate), thiamine hydrochloride, riboflavin and folic acid. Americans also consume a great deal of excess salt and sugar from eating processed food products; when you cook at home, you decide how much of each ingredient to use.

    Experimentation: Think back to those rainy afternoons at home with a stack of blank pages and a box of crayons. Or perhaps you were given a block of molding clay in art class and told to go wild. As children, we’re given the opportunity to play, to create, to mess up and start over again. Cooking is the same for me. Each new recipe is a chance to make a masterpiece — or to learn from a dish that didn’t turn out quite right. The more I cook, the more I understand and over time, I’ve gained the skills needed to elevate some of those “not so great” recipes into food that’s more than just edible.

    Kitchen witchery: There’s something magical about cooking and baking. You take quality ingredients from all parts of the planet, combine them skillfully, add heat or cold or motion — and ta da! A dish appears. Watching this transformation occur is such fun. Plus, the “trick” tastes divine and it disappears!

    Love: I’ve never worked in the food industry nor am I a trained chef. For me, cooking is an act of love. When I create meals, I’m showing people how much I care. I fill the house with warm, delectable scents and fill the body with food that both nourishes and satisfies. When circumstance allows, cooking at home leads to good conversations and great meals.

    Hmm… Perhaps Pollan was right about that memory thing after all.

    –Photo by Ariel da Silva Parreira

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    Milo is dead. Long live Milo

    Milo, my 6-year-old 17″ MacBook Pro bit the dust this weekend. I’m talking ALL DEAD.

    As Miracle Max once said, “There’s a big difference between mostly dead and all dead. Mostly dead is slightly alive. With all dead, well, with all dead there’s usually only one thing you can do.” In this case, that one thing was dropping some serious cash on a new computer.

    I did back up most of my data so other than a few very stressful days and the disappearance of about 1,000 songs, it wasn’t a complete loss. However, none of the calendar info transferred to my back up devices (and the calendar in the cloud was apparently incomplete).

    So, if you could do me a huge favor and forward your latest contact info and birthdate, I would really appreciate it.

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    Quote of the week

    “There are two kinds of writer: those that make you think, and those that make you wonder.” –Brian Aldiss